On the day that I was born my father refused to come to the hospital with my mother because there was a boxing match on television that he had waited all year to see.  This was a telling sign of things to come in my life.  His absence would be felt again and again at all the important times in my life.  It would be this longing for my daddy that would create an enormously deep wound in my soul.

At the age of three my father introduced me to sexual abuse; although at the time, I did not know the meaning of the words, nor could I even spell them.  I thought that all little girls played these same games with their fathers.  At the age of six, my family became "Christians" but sadly the abuse was to continue for many more years.  I often cried myself to sleep asking Jesus to come and rescue me. I spent most of my life trying to love God but always feeling such ambivalence in my heart towards Him.  I just could not understand how God had allowed the abuse to continue after I had prayed so many years for it to end. 

It was not until I had a severe neck injury that ended my 23-year career that I slowly came to the end of myself and was forced to face my abuse.  I was completely shattered emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.  It was then that I began on a journey towards my wholeness and freedom.  I am now 51 years old and have found such joy and peace in my life for the very first time.  I have forgiven my father and there is not a single cell in my body that hates him anymore.  

I never intended to write a book.  I became an author quite by “accident”.  In the depths of my pain, I began to journal and what came out was not in diary format but in story form.  I was puzzled by this but continued to write as a means of finding peace for myself.  After I found my freedom, I simply could not keep it to myself.  As I began to share my freedom with others, I was appalled to discover that I was not alone.  There were so many others that I knew who were still suffering in their silence.  I could not keep this freedom to myself.  I want to let the whole world know that there is a way out of this pain and His wonderful name is Jesus.

I am President and Founder of I Am Whole, Inc. which is a 501c3 non-profit dedicated to helping abuse victims find their freedom from the pain through Jesus Christ.  To find out more about this ministry, click on the "New Ministry" tab on the left side of the screen.